At least once a week I wake up in the middle of the night with a minor freak out because my body has no idea where I am and what time zone I’m in. It takes me a minute to gauge my surroundings and calm back down. This week I shot up at 3 A.M repeatedly mumbling “where am I?”. Turns out, I was in good ole Omaha for my brother’s dental school graduation. I came straight from a client in San Bernardino, California. San Bernardino is smaller than I thought it would be. I’m not sure how people live, work and raise families here because it seems pretty dangerous without much to offer. A lot of people I’ve come across commute up to two hours each day from larger surrounding cities.
Needless to say, I don’t have any fun travel tips for SB. I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t looking for another job, ‘looking’ may even be an understatement. I can’t sustain this road life, it definitely impacts my mental and physical health (it’s impossible to eat wholesome food with this schedule). Lately, there’s even more of a motivation to get back home, my family lives there but also, T just bought an amazing condo. We can’t live together until we’re married but we’re on our way there, at this point I just need to ditch the night terrors and feel settled.
It’s frustrating because I’m constantly taking phone interviews and if I can’t call in “sick” to work to fly to STL for an in-person interview, I’ll do a skype interview, and despite the efforts nothing has come from it. Applying for jobs should be a full time job itself. At this point, I just might have the drive I need to start my own business. I’ve been working on an idea for the past couple months and it’s gotten to the point where I need to put my money towards it to move forward. I don’t know if I’m ready for that leap of faith. It feels like I have three jobs between my actual job, applying for a new one and then also working on this idea. Hopefully something great comes from one of these, only time will tell.
I noticed that I’m constantly surrounded by success. After all, it is the season of graduations, weddings, moving and new chapters. My family and friends are kicking ass; some are focusing on family, improving their health, making money, going to school and overall hustlin’ to get their goals accomplished. The success is inspiring and pushes me to try to keep up somehow.